Vim Quietude

Fear and loathing.

No, this has nothing to do with Las Vegas.

Recently there was an open mike night about fear. People talked about their fears and such. Naturally people ad-libbed a line about being afraid of coming up and speaking in front of a crowd. Still got a laugh, though. In a way, that scares me.

The fear of the unknown will come up in my next post. However, the most common unknown thing to be afraid of is my topic right now. Death can be very scary for a number of reasons, but we all have to face it eventually. So I wonder why some people say "no" if asked whether or not they'd want to know when they're going to die.

I'd totally want to know when my number is coming up. For example, if I know at 18 that I was going to die at 20, would I go to college? Absolutely not. And what's else, it's kind of like a deadline. I tend to get more done with a deadline. Pretty much any student will agree in one way or another. Finally, do you just not want to ruin the surprise? It's like: Surprise! You're dead now! Who wants that to be a surprise? Furthermore, if you're afraid of something having it be a surprise isn't going to help.

That would be an interesting day, knowing you're going to die. You'll be looking at everything going "What's going to kill me?"

But the real point is one of my bigger fears. These fears come from reasing too many adventures. Let's say I do somehing amazing, or complete what turns out to be an incredible project. I threw the One Ring into the fires of Mordor, or whatever. Okay, I just did that, now what? Well, I could lie on the couch and eat some Fritos. Maybe do a few jumping jacks, I dunno.

I dunno = unknown segue.

posted by Deriser @ 12:21 AM